destruction

Hello.

After seeing one of my now ex friends post multiple pictures about love and how much he loves his on off girlfriend of a few months and then ten minutes later saying how upset he was she didn't care. And blah blah blah. I thought I'd warn you all against the dangers of a destructive relationship.

Now I'm not googling this I'm simply writing from my own experience and what I have learnt I honestly do not wish this upon anyone. A destructive relationship doesn't necessarily have to be abusive but it is often boarder line. Here are a few signs you're in a destructive relationship.

1) Isolation.... I don't like your friends. Do you have to see him/her. You're family don't care they "input something bad they did." ... They will say anything and everything to make the other person look bad and like they are looking out for your best interest.

2) They insult you daily. But it's always a joke right.  They pick at every little thing you do wrong. One minute they love you and the next minute they couldn't care less if you walked out the door. 

3)They always turn the blame around on you. You're over reacting. I didn't mean it you just make me so angry when you act like that. 

4) My personal favourite... you can't do better than me.

A destructive relationship will knock your confidence down bit by bit so you don't notice it until one day you rely on that person because you so scared to end up alone. STOP take a step back if any of the above is true to you please leave now before it's too late it'll only get harder. Please don't use the you don't understand my relationship we have something passionate. 

I had that a belly full of fire a relationship full of fight I felt that because he hurt me so much it must be love we were meant to be together because I would do anything for him. This is not love. I wised up after four years of being slapped about and controlled I walked and never looked back. 

Now after you have walked and honestly I hope you do I do not care if you have children we did too or you're married. You have to take care of yourself it's no environment to raise a child. Spend time by yourself raise your confidence do thing you love doing spend time with people who make you happy get in touch with that old friend they never let you see. Learn to be happy with yourself and to love yourself believe me this is needed.

Now if you find someone great but don't until your ready. I don't want to hear 'he/she makes me feel whole.' You are a couple that equals two that means you feel while by yourself you happy by yourself they are an added bonus to your life.

Love is not meant to hurt. Yes arguments happen but you should have more good days than bad. Love is someone building you up, excepting who you are and backing you in the life you want to live. Not knocking you down to be re modelled to the partner they want.

Now the quote I am about to use by Oscar Wilde I have tattooed on my thigh and I live and breath by it.

"To love oneself is the beginning of a life long romance."

I hope this helps anyone in a destructive relationship.

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Equality

Recently I've been thinking about equality and how much our world has missed out on due to the rich not allowing poorer people to have education. How much literature and art have we missed out on, how many scientific discoveries and break throughs if they'd just given everyone the right for education sooner? Simple i'm sure you all agree. Then why are we repeating the same mistakes by not giving everyone the right to a GOOD education. Why should the rich be allowed better education daddys moneys already going to give them a foot up in life and before you say well everyone gets an education NO from my experience public schools are useless yes some are good and i will say a few of my teachers i adored but most of the teachers hated their job, the school and the pupils. We should all have the same education. University shouldn't cost so much!!! Some of us don't want to be in debt just so we can be stuck in a 9-5 job. Maybe if we were given a proper education and a better chance to suceed in life there would be less people on benefits. Why try when we're only going to struggle and just about survive. So stop criminalising us poor uneducated fools and start giving us equal chances to become whatever we aspire to be. And maybe just maybe if you gave the working class the education needed to become mp's we might do an amazing job because you can't see how we feel and live from all the way up there in your fancy castles and shit. None of you have any clue what it's like to worry about where the money for dinners going to come from or if the electric will hold out till we next get paid. So do yourselves a favour live on the bare minimum we're entitled to and see how long you can last until you crack, I think every politician should have to walk in a poor mans shoes before he gets the job. How can you possibly help if you don't understand?

Over excitement

So my now boyfriend that's right boyfriend ; D, took me to the Harry Potter studio tour because i refused to let him get me a Christmas present jgxywjbshdkqvg major fan girl moments happened all day and apparently its cute that i kept giving him random facts. Being a geek pays off hear that girls put some clothes on and read a book. Brains over boobs!!! The most wonderful part was he didn't expect anything back we simply came home and went to sleep. Beautiful right most boys would of expected a weeks worth of blowjobs. Got me a gentlemen. He's not romantic though he occasionally says cute things but this suits me just fine i can't stand all the lovey dovey 'your so amazing hunny bunny' BLEURGHH. He's the perfect mix of sarcasm, sweetness, kinkyness (oh my) and gentlemenness (i apologise that's not actually a word.) I'm pretty sure i wished for a Mr. Grey and boy did the universe deliver!!! So surely there must be something wrong you ask? well... the awful bombshell has been dropped his ex lives at his (not in the same room) should this sway my opinion? I don't think so because -lets call her Brian- has got extremely below average looks... i sound like a bitch yes the only thing that could possibly worry me is the fact that she has shockingly amazing boobies (yes i sneaked a look at her profile pictures who wouldn't). But for now i trust my Mr. Grey and i look forward to unearthing his fifty shades ; D